I am always in a rush to get to the next thing. From rushing to leave at the time I had planned to go to work, rushing to get home from work, rushing as I cook food, rushing to read forum post, rushing to read my book, rushing to get dressed, rushing to get undressed, rushing to catch the next bus/train..... in rushing I get a RUSH!!
In rushing I am not HERE but I am THERE in the 'future'.
Why do I rush?
I rush out of fear of running out of time, fear of disapproval if I am late somewhere... I rush for the excitement of being done with the task I am rushing to do so I can do something else - constantly rushing to get to the next thing.
Today felt great (not rushing)! I enjoyed myself and life even with the absence of the RUSH. Although I kind of got a RUSH out of not rushing, LOL - work in progress! Perhaps it wasn't a rush but joy in being more present with self?!
I remained in self trust that I can move at a natural pace through life and trust that I will get myself where I need to be without having to rush.
In not rushing I got a chore done before work that i had been putting off due to fear of not having enough time to do it before work and I got to work a earlier then I ever do!
Each time i felt the RUSH inside of me I stopped and breathed and didn't give into the desire to rush, and moved as self-trust Here.
Anton Colors
5 years ago
