Jealousy and Comparison

Jealousy and Comparison to male actors, models and men in general I judge as being more attractive and or more confident.

When I watch movies or see advertisements and magazines I compare myself and feel inferior to celebrities such as Brad Pit, Judd Law, Johnny Depp and all 'attractive' male actors and models and I thus suppress my self expression due to believing I am inferior and not good enough. -- which leads to jealousy.

I forgive myself for allowing myself to be jealous of actors and models.

I forgive myself for allowing myself to believe that I am inferior to actors and models.

I forgive myself for allowing myself to believe that the profession of acting and modeling is superior to all other forms of expression, thus myself striving to do these things.

I forgive myself for allowing myself to suppress my self expression due to the belief that my self expression isn't as good as or as cool as the attractive male models and actors and other men that I judge as being more attractive and or more confident then me.

I forgive myself for not allowing myself to fully and openly express myself due to me suppressing my self expression due to the belief that I am less then, due to my belief that there are others out there better then me, (actors and models).

I forgive myself for allowing myself to believe that I am not good enough, thus fearing judgment from others.

I forgive myself for not realizing in fearing others judging me, it is actually me judging me, and projecting myself onto others -- fearing others in the world being like me.

I forgive myself for allowing myself to hide me due to the belief that I am not good enough.

I forgive myself for allowing myself to judge myself and others as being 'less' attractive or 'not' attractive.

I forgive myself for allowing myself to believe that the narrow face, small nose defined muscular body portrayed by the media as being the "it" of how I should and need to look to have self worth and worth in the eyes of others in this world.

I forgive myself for allowing myself to be down on myself due to the belief that I am not as attractive or as confident as the male models and actors on television and ads.

I forgive myself for allowing myself to fear judgment from others for 'not being as attractive' as the male actors and models on tv and ads and other men I judge as being more attractive.

I forgive myself for allowing myself to believe that I am not as attractive as the models and actors I see on tv and in ads.

I forgive myself for allowing myself to believe that I can not be confident , because of my judging others as being more confident.

I forgive myself for allowing myself to compare myself to other men.

I forgive myself for allowing myself to believe other men are better then me.

I forgive myself for allowing myself to compare myself to other men and then fear my partner at the time wanting to be with these men I judge as being more attractive and more confident.

I forgive myself for allowing myself to be jealous of male actors, models and everyday men I judge as being more attractive and more confident.

I forgive myself for allowing myself to compare myself to what the media portrays of what a man should look like.

I forgive myself for allowing myself to believe that the look and characteristics of a "man" I see portrayed in media and television is the truth.

Till here no further do I compare myself to others.

Till here no further do I believe that I am less then male actors, models and everyday men I judge as being attractive and confident.

Till here no further do I believe that I am not confident.

Till here no further do I feed the system of more/less attractive.

Till here no further do I judge others as being more or less attractive then myself.

Till here no further do I believe the 'look' of men portrayed on tv and ads as being 'the way' i should, or a man should be.

Till here no further do I believe that I have to attractive in the eyes of others for self worth.

Till here no further do I look for self worth outside of myself.

Till here no further do I am I jealous of males actors and models or other men i see as attractive and confident.

I release all systems and backup systems that I have created as me that compare me to others for believed survival.

Till here no further do I believe that I must be 'the best' or looked at as very attractive in the eyes of others to 'survive'.

From this point on when i notice myself comparing myself and others to myself and others I STOP in that moment and breathe, and I do not feed these patterns with my attention.

I can trust that the SF I have applied in the past and today in regards to comparison is sufficient and that I must not breathe and walk through these points as they arise in corrective living application.

Till here no further do I suppress my self expression, as I no longer compare my expression to others expressions.

Till here no further do I hold myself back from being me in the moment.

Till here no further do I fear judgment from others as being less then; less cool and less attractive.

Till here no further do i believe anyone is superior or inferior to each other.

I express me openly and fully from this point on.

By not comparing myself/judging myself and others as inferior or superior, there is no reason for me to be jealous anymore.

I allow myself to express.

I allow myself to live and no longer do i hide.

I do not judge or compare others.

I express here, and allow myself to express who i am within each moment in honesty and oneness and equality.

I walk through these points of comparison as the arise, no longer do i give into these patterns. I breathe and walk and stand as self expression as life.

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Muscle testing done on below listed points in regards to what will be helpful corrective action for me to apply, in addition to the self forgiveness statements I wrote out above.

1. Writing

2. Self Forgiveness

3. Communication (self or another or a specific person)

4. Breathing

**5. Physical (unlock)**

**6. dancing (unlock)**

7. jumping up and down

8. shaking

9. working

10. playing music/singing

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Being more physical in general and dancing tested out.

So doing more physical things in general as well as dancing is a helpful specific physical action for me to do in regards to expressing myself freely.

I went out dancing a few nights ago and I bounce back and forth from free expression when dancing to comparing myself and thus suppressing my expression.

I will dance freely without fear of judgement and without judging or comparing myself and others.

I move and dance freely as my expression of life.