I am in a car with my friend who is financially wealthy. She needed to get a replacement battery for something so we go to a store. At first we thought she needed a small battery that would only cost a few dollars however it ended up being a larger battery she needed and it cost $160.00.
Back in the car now - she is driving, and she ask me to check her accounts to see how much money was in there. She was complaining how much the battery cost however I know she has more then enough money to get it. I am looking online at her accounts, she tells me to giver her the amounts in 6 of the about 20 differfent accounts just to see how much she has. She has many millions of dollars, however she is still uptight about spending that much for a battery.
We go to another store where she wanted to see if they had the same battery for less cost - however they did not.
Translation....
My financially wealthy friend represents me and my money/relationship with money.
My relationship with money based on false beliefs and fears of money is "driving"/running ME.
Money representing my fears and also literally money.
The battery represents my "power"(my essence HERE) which my fears prevent me from accessing.
I have formed false beliefes/fears around money. These past beliefes/fears of money are running me. They are running me to the point that even though now I have some extra money to purchase organic foods etc. I still have the fear that "I can't" purchase them because if I do I will "run out of money".
This is a false beliefe based on past experiences.
Reflection..
Growing up my family always talked about how much things cost and complaining about it(money). Based on this beliefe, I formed that money is hard to get and "we" don't have much of it - since I moved out on my own I have always been living paycheck to paycheck barley getting by - and eventually filing bank ruptcey at age 25(3 years ago).
My beliefes around money keep manifesting into my reality keeping me in a place of not having enough. Until the past few months, I have been working on these patterns and now have some extra money and can eat out if I want and buy a ticket to a show and buy a rechargeable battery adaptor which I happened to do in "waking" life today etc.
Although I have this extra money now I still live in fear of running out of money with EVERYTHING I purchase EVERYTIME. This fear is lessening however less it may be it is still running me.
Insights...
My fears in all of they're forms are "blocking" me from being ME(in my "power"/HERE).
I have more then enough money/resources to do all the things I want to do right HERE. And HERE is all that exist - therefore there is no need for me to fear not having enough money as this fear is me projecting the past into the future which both do not even exist - skipping right over the HERE - existing in the mind and not practically HERE with and as BREATH.
Till here no further - I will no longer accept and allow myself to fear running out of money.
Self-Forgiveness & Self-Direction..
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear running out of money.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to experience fear within and as me when I purchase things even though I have more then enough money to make the purchases.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to identify with and as my families beliefes of money being hard to get and not having enough of it.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give my power over to the fear of running out of money.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create situations of not having enough money/running out of money due to my participation with and as the beliefes of not having enough money/running out of money.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be controlled by money.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be controlled by my fears of money.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge money as being bad.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to seperate myself from money due to my projected beliefes that I have placed around money.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to attempt at manifesting money vs. just being HERE - moving and directing me within and as the HERE.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear dying if I where to run out of money.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as being inferior for accepting and allowing myself to put myself in repeated situations of running out of money.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge those with a lot of money as being materialistic.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge those without a lot of money as being less then those that do have a lot of money.
I release all fears of running out of money.
I release all fears of purchasing things due to the fear of running out of money.
I release all judgements of money being bad.
I release all beLIEfes of my families that I took on as money being hard to get and not having enough of it.
I release all beLIFes i've learned from observing the worlds relationship around money.
I release all fears of of death of not having enough money.
I release all judgements that people with a lot of money are materialistic.
I release all judgements that people that do not have a lot of money are less then people with a lot of money.
I release all judgments of myself being inferior for accepting and allowing myself to put myself in repeated situations of running out of money.
I release all desires to manifest money.
I STOP participation within and as the fears/beliefes of running out of money.
I no longer seperate myself from money, as I am money and money is me as all is ALL.
I am HERE as BREATH as LIFE as ALL - moving and directing ME as SELF-HONESTY and SELF-TRUST in ONENESS and EQUALITY.....
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