Dream....Mask I wear and Self-Responsibility

Dream....
I am at a "dorm" like setting and many of us are getting dressed up in costumes for an event/party. I am in my costume, however my costume is very subtle to where you wouldn't really realize I am wearing one until you look closely - someone comments "oh, I didn't realize you where wearing a costume but now I see it". I have black eye shaddow in a design around my eyes.

Now at the event, I look around and of the 100's of people not many put on noticeable costumes, but the ones that did where very elaborate. There was a performance happening on stage 2 women in costumes chasing each other shooting to guns and throwing soft toy axes. M is next to me and an axe hits her - she said I think they where trying to hit you.

Translation...
I may not feel that I am wearing a "mask" but however subtle it may be there is still a "mask" construct in place. A "mask" that I maintain as my projected image of what I feel I have to be/live up to. I sometimes project my "larger mask " onto M although it is really me projecting my mask onto myself.

Self-Forgiveness applied to point’s w/in me that are "blocking" me from being ME Fully....
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wear a mask.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel that I have to wear a mask because who I am without it isn't good enough.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that who I really am is not good enough.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself and others for not being good enough.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself and others as being less than or better than.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give my power over to my projections of what I believe to be acceptable from others.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to project an "ideal" me based off the projection of what I believed to be acceptable by the masses.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not be in my "power"/ to not be who I really am fully HERE with and as breath.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel that I have to wear a "mask" to be accepted by others.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wear a mask to be accepted by myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not accept myself for who I really am.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wear a mask when I am with M.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to enlarge my mask when I am with M.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear being ME fully with M. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge M of not being accepting of me without my mask.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as not being acceptable to myself without my mask.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear judgment.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself and others as not being good enough.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that judgments are real.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear - fear.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create mask out of the belief I had to maintain a "perfect" image.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe I had to maintain a perfect image to be accepted by others.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear rejection from others if I am not perfect through their eyes.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to reject myself for not being what I perceive perfect to be.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to project what I believed a "perfect" image to be.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe I had to be "perfect" in order to be accepted by others.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to try and be "perfect".
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to where a mask of "perfection".
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear being judged as not being perfect.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as not being perfect.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself and others as being perfect or not perfect.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create this entity "perfect" outside of me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to live in separation by labeling myself and others as being perfect or not perfect.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to put myself higher then others with my perceived mask of perfection.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I am higher then others because of my perceived "spiritual" awareness/my perceived highly evolvedness.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe I am highly evolved. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself and others from being highly evolved or not being highly evolved.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not be ME fully - who I really am HERE as breath in oneness and equality with and as all.

Self-Corrective Application....
I STOP - I will no longer accept and allow myself to wear a mask, as my mask are creations of the mind based on past and projected beliefs which are all illusions.
I will no longer accept and allow myself to not be me fully HERE as one as all as equal.
I am not higher/better then anyone and I am not lower/worse then anyone. No one is better or worse then anyone. This is all an illusion as we are all HERE equal in oneness and equality as life.
I release all fears of judgment,
I release all judgments towards myself and others,
I release all thoughts/beliefs that I have to wear a mask,
I release all mask,
I release all projections of separation of better and worse -- perfect and not perfect,
I release all of these thoughts from every aspect of my being right HERE.

What remains is ME/SELF as one as all as equal.

From this point on I am ME fully HERE as breath as life as one as all as equal.

I breathe, I breath, I HERE, I, HERE,__

Dream continued....
Now change of scene. I am outside with a couple others and we get the message that we have to leave the city because of a natural disaster that is heading our way(a tsunami). Me an two others are running to get to safety and one of the guys with us runs and jumps on these floating docks in the water to make them sink as they where almost sinking and he didn't want anyone else to stand on them and sink. High waters are coming and he continues doing this even though the waves are going to make them sink anyway - he jumps off of them at the last second. We flag down a man driving a little truck. We hop in and he says he has a place to take us.

Translation...
I believe I have to save others however the truth is I am not saving anyone as the waves are going to "sink the floating docks" anyway. I distract myself from "saving" myself by trying to "save" others. I often wait until the last minute to take self-responsibility - I often wait until some "natural disaster" occurs in my inner and or outer world before I take self-action.

Self-Forgiveness applied to point’s w/in me that are "blocking" me from being ME Fully....
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel I have to try and save others.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I can save others.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not take self-responsibility and instead take responsibility for others.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe I am responsible for others.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold myself back/put myself off for others.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not take care of myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to lag behind to try and save others.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wait till the last minute to take self-responsibility.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wait till "disasters"/to wait till I am forced by "rough waves" to take self-responsibility.

Self -Corrective Application....
I STOP - I will no longer accept and allow myself to distract myself from taking self-responsibility by putting my responsibility on others, as we are all SELF-Responsible.
I will no longer accept and allow myself to believe that I can save others - as only each can "save" themselves.
I release all beliefs that I have to save others,
I release all thoughts that try to distract me from taking SELF-Responsibility.

I STAND HERE AS SELF as SELF-RESPONSABILITY moving and directing ME to no longer accept and allow what I and all have become in separation.

Dream continued...
We are now in the country and he turns down an extremely rough road to get to where we need to go. The road is so rough and full of obstacles that I am amazed he just drove over everything as if it was no big deal all while he was talking to someone on his cell phone. We pull up to this old building. He takes us in and we go in a door that is like the basement of this old building where there are spiders and insects on the ceiling, floor and walls. I feel fear walking through the insects. He knocks on a door and a woman answers, we go in. He says she lives here by her self - it is her sanctuary. In a corner I see some pillow where she meditates and it is very nice inside. She is a very nice woman. I see sunlight coming in and I was surprised that there where windows in here as I thought it was the basement of a building. She shows us outside there is a large sliding glass door, which opens up to a lake surrounded by forest, the place is beautiful. I am so shocked that such a rough road and "ugly old" building led to such a beautiful place.

Translation...
The "road" of self-responsibility/oneness and equality may be "rough" however well worth the hard work -- also it is the only place to go as the "city is being destroyed by a natural disaster" The "city" being me/who I am.

Self-Forgiveness applied to point’s w/in me that are "blocking" me from being ME Fully....
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear and avoid the "rough road" of SELF-Responsibility.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not focus fully on the task I am doing in that moment such as speaking on the cell phone/doing two things at once.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear taking self-responsibility.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the "path" of self-responsibility.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to doubt my abilities to take self-responsibility.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to doubt myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look toward others for direction vs. not taking my own direction.

Self-Corrective Application...
I STOP- I will no longer accept and allow myself to fear and avoid self-responsibility.
I will no longer accept and allow myself to doubt myself.
I will no longer accept and allow myself to look toward others for direction.
I will no longer accept and allow myself to not be completely focused on the one task at hand.
I will no longer accept and allow myself to judge self-responsibility as being scary and hard as it just IS.
I will no longer accept and allow myself to be run by fear.
I will no longer accept and allow myself to hold myself back due to fear.
I will no longer accept and allow fear to exist within and as me.

I release all fears and doubts and all thoughts attached to not taking SELF-Responsibility from every aspect of my being right HERE.

What remains is ME/SELF HERE as LIFE as One as All as Equal.
I AM HERE as life as who I really am - moving and directing me as self responsibility- to no longer accept and allow what I have accepted and allowed to exist within and as me and this world.

Till here no further will I avoid SELF-RESPONSABILITY --
I AM SELF-RESPONSABILITY,
I AM SELF-HONEST,
I AM SELF-CORRECTIVE APPLICATION,
I AM SELF-MOVEMENT,
I MOVE,
I,
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